Monday, August 03, 2015
So some other remedies were tried. Herbal tea, which my friend affectionately called “sleepy time tea” was added to my evening routine. It did help me fall asleep, but I still woke exhausted. Cut down caffeine intake. People, for like 4 years of my life, I stopped by the local Exxon and bought a 32 oz Diet Coke every day to get me through the day. That is a lot of sugar and caffeine, but my bargainista friends would understand. It was only $.68!!! How could I afford not to? Regardless, I have not been engaging in the Diet Coke practice for about 8 years. I actually drink no coffee during the summer and drink about 3 liters, that’s right - LITERS, of water a day. I run 2-3 miles a day 4-6 days a week.
So what now? I want to do the non-electronic/tv thing and just read myself to sleep like my kids, but there is a hinderance in that plan that you will just have to figure out yourself. Let’s just say I’m not the only one attempting to fall asleep in the same room. I toss and turn all night. My mind doesn’t shut down. I’m too young for this. Don’t you dare say otherwise.
I spend time wondering how I could do things better. I spend time analyzing and rethinking decisions. I spend time praying over little things that most people can just hand to God and walk away. I have regrets and absence of forgiveness of SELF. Is this you? Is your plate full because you are trying to do something/everything perfect? I bet you are expecting her post to be a great challenge to drop some stuff and resolve to just be confident in the things you do well. Nope. I told you, it changed me.
It’s OK to not be OK. Through Him, I will be.